Drugs and me.

[ChrisC]

I have done almost all recreationals with the exception of Heroin and Crack. The last time I took any recreationals was 2004 which was GBL. Since then I have only smoked mild cannabis and drunk alchohol. Sometimes I look on here at people commenting on taking drugs and I'm not sure if I am to feel jealous or what. You see I don't think I can take another trip, or getting into the cycle of addiction of GBL, Speed, Coke or some other dopamine related reward substance. My mental state has been bad and maybe thats why. The only drugs I do take now are prescribed ones. Currently Citalopram, Aprazolam and Olanzapine.

My point? I think there are two ways you can go, either you get fucked or you eventually stop. Because I believe you get to a stage when theres no more to learn from tripping and that buzz from E doesn't last forever.

I'm addicted to reading now and can't ever see myself getting back into drugs. A friend at a rave who I have lost contact with once said to me "Have a baby Chris,that will sort your head out." I have to agree. Since my child was born I have thought a lot less about suicide and looking for the next great buzz.

However, I don't regret any of it, or do I? I'm not sure.

Anyway, just musing at work, thanks for reading.

[admin]

There is a lot of drug related science fiction. Philip K. Dick is the most famous druggie sf writer, but George R. R. Martin is another. I was at a Clarion writers workshop many, many years ago, and a lot of the would be writers -- a few of whom went on to become pros but most of whom vanished from my radar -- would do drugs and then write their story of the day. Harlan Ellison, I think, was the writer who said flatly: Do not turn in one more story written on drugs. They meander, they ramble, they are inchoherant, they lack punch.

The classic case of a writer ruined by drugs is Alexi Panshin, who was an up and coming major writer before marriage and too much LSD destroyed him.

Am I sorry I did drugs? Oddly, I have no regrets about LSD, but I did some things on pot that I am ashamed of still.

[ChrisC]

LSD is fairly harmless physically. Sometimes I feel I have been damaged by drugs, especially E and GBL. Sometimes I even feel my consiousness take a dip into other dimensions without drugs. However I'm diagnosed as Schizophrenic, but I don't rule out the possibility of the reality of these experiences.

[admin]

For what it is worth, let me assure you that even under LSD the universe is stable and essentially as described by the laws of physics.

[ChrisC]

Indeed, this is what I'm finding out. Although I always thought, are religious icons mental? I mean how would we take Jesus or Mohammed, Siddhartha today. They would probably be medicated.

[admin]

Jesus would be fine. He would stand on a soapbox in Hyde Park and draw quite a crowd. Unless, he came back in the Middle East, in which case he would probably not live to be 30. The Roman Empire was a lot more tolerent than most modern governments in that area.

Mohammed would be locked up as a terrorist.

Sidharta would also be fine, unless his family had him put away for renouncing all his worldly goods -- he'd be ok as long as he renounced them in favor of his relatives.