I have done almost all recreationals with the exception of Heroin and Crack. The last time I took any recreationals was 2004 which was GBL. Since then I have only smoked mild cannabis and drunk alchohol. Sometimes I look on here at people commenting on taking drugs and I'm not sure if I am to feel jealous or what. You see I don't think I can take another trip, or getting into the cycle of addiction of GBL, Speed, Coke or some other dopamine related reward substance. My mental state has been bad and maybe thats why. The only drugs I do take now are prescribed ones. Currently Citalopram, Aprazolam and Olanzapine.
My point? I think there are two ways you can go, either you get fucked or you eventually stop. Because I believe you get to a stage when theres no more to learn from tripping and that buzz from E doesn't last forever.
I'm addicted to reading now and can't ever see myself getting back into drugs. A friend at a rave who I have lost contact with once said to me "Have a baby Chris,that will sort your head out." I have to agree. Since my child was born I have thought a lot less about suicide and looking for the next great buzz.
However, I don't regret any of it, or do I? I'm not sure.
Anyway, just musing at work, thanks for reading.