First let me put things into perspective. I have job, I'm pretty level headed at the moment.
However, me and the wife had an in depth discussion last night. It wasn't ugly it was quite calm and collected. She is scared that I will flip out again due to my schizoaffective dis-order. Although at the moment I'm quite fine. Well the long and short of it is she pretty much wants me to leave. She is unable to support me if and when and thats IF, I flip out again.
She scared of this happening. I supposed I don't blame her. I'm scared of it happening as well. This is why I have not been fucking around with my meds anymore. I'm doing want my psychiatrist is saying. I have completely stopped smoking cannabis. I have the odd few beers at the weekend.
I have an up and coming holiday to the UK this Christmas going on my own. Maybe this will clear my head a bit. Seeing my family and everything.
My feeling is, although I don't like it here I would not want to stop my kids having a father. My previous wobble on this topic can be thrown in the dustbin. I'm thinking a little clearer now. Although I'm just sad about the whole situation.
Would it be to much trouble to ask peoples views please.